The people you see in this issue illustrate trans life in their corner of the world, and help show us the true meaning of beauty, international or otherwise. Our two part interviews cover both the cultural heritage and personal beliefs of these brave individuals, and inspire greater understanding of transgender experiences around the world.
Eva Cassini, USA
Part one of this interview can be found in Transformation 96: The International Issue
What do you like to do in your free time? I enjoy playing ukulele and guitar. I have been playing guitar for about 10 years and the ukulele since November 9, 2014. Being a newly single transgirl, I have been experiencing life to it’s fullest. This is THE first time ever that I am single and look the way I do. With that said, I very much delight in trying new things, saying “why not” more, and enlightening myself.
I also revel in going out to party, dining out, watching movies (especially Marvel movies), and being a social butterfly.
Do you have any fantasies? I have many fantasies.
Sexual-wise, they include hot tgirls and females indulging in my fetishes with me. My fetishes include smoking, latex, leather, candle wax, and suction. Just to name a few.
Non-sexual-wise, I simply wish to travel and experience life to it’s fullest. To spend time with friends and family when I can, and also star in a Marvel Studios film within their Marvel Cinematic Universe. That would be incredible!
Transition is physical, emotional, and social, all of which present different types of challenges. Tell us about your experience of them if you could. My transition has been, and still is not, an easy path to take. It has been rewarding in some facets of my life but physically, because hormones effect everyone differently, my body has not panned out how I would have liked. Due to starting at the later age of 22, hormones didn’t give me breasts, or much fat redistribution. So, to achieve the look I want, how I picture my female self in my mind, I have had to get surgery but I still want more surgery to achieve my final look.
Emotionally and socially, I have had many big ups and big downs. Because of the hormones, I do get mood swings, but the most emotional part of my transition was how it affected my relationship with loved ones. Friends, family, and past girlfriends. I have lost friends. I have lost literally half my family on my paternal side because they would just not be or try to be open minded and love me for who I am. I have lost prior loves because they either didn’t care to want and love a trans person, or they did not want to be with me because of how my transition will make me look. It has been seriously devastating for me.
Me personally, if I am with someone I love and want to spend the rest of my life with, if they wanted to change something about their look, it would not affect me at all, nor my love for them. I only care if this change would make them happy. Hell, it is her body, not mine. It is hers to do with what she wants. As long as it makes her happy and does not cause any harm to anyone. With the heart ache I feel from my recent ex relationship, I have made it known not just to anyone, but mainly to myself, that I could not get back into something like that. I have got too much going on with my life to add more emotional stress. On the last day I was in Japan, when I was getting honorably discharged out of the Navy, one of my best friends on my ship, David Frasier, walked me down the pier to wait with me for my taxi to Narita Airport. He knew I wanted to be a woman and why I was getting out of the Navy, but he was still a loyal friend, and right as my taxi pulled up, he gave me a hug, pulled away, pointed at me and said, “You do you.” These words didn’t truly impact me until I recently became single. I have no time machine. I posses no magical reality warping powers. I could not “fix” this gaping wound of a relationship. So after many nights of contemplating my transition path, I finally recalled those words David said. “You. Do. You.”
Since then I have been repairing my life, working towards what I want and need, and enjoying as much as I can.
What are you the most proud of so far in your life? The things I am most proud of so far in my life are that I am transitioning and feeling more and more like my self each day. I am proud of how well I can play ukulele and guitar because I earned that talent with constant practice. Not a day goes by that I don’t pick up my ukulele. I am quite proud of my official website www.EvaCassini.com. It has recently been in hiatus for a handful of months, but that is only because of my recent break up. I finally have a new hand me down laptop that I am working from now, which will allow me to work. Also with the transition of of my site to the new Model Centro system through Grooby, my site will be up and running soon with frequently frequent sexy updates!
What are you working towards now? Currently I am working towards furthering my transitions goals. I am fond of the “bimbo” look. Simply put, big boobs, small waist, big butt with wide hips, and typically tanned dark. I currently have long blonde hair, which usually is a staple in the bimbo look, but soon (or by the time this awesome magazine debuts), I will debut my new hair! I am very excited about it and I can’t wait to show you all!
I am also looking forward to my move to LA. I know that with the group of friends I have and the professional connections I know, and along with my ability to make money stably, this move will be the best thing to happen yet! This move will get my life back on track with me taking full control over my life and doing what makes me happy and what makes me succeed.
Best gift? The best gift I have ever received, is my ukulele, which was given to me by my ex girlfriend Jamie French
What gets you riled up enough to lose your temper? When I am called something I am not. When talk, about me, is false information.
You would never catch me wearing… a glove. (Had to do it! LOL)
What has acceptance come to mean to you? Acceptance is a welcome. It is being open minded. It allows one’s self to not live with hate and negativity.
It brings people together to share in enlightenment. It’s a love.