Define your feelings while you were growing up that made you feel different.
Growing up in a rural area with very conservative parents I wasn’t sure what was different, I just knew I wasn’t like other boys. It wasn’t until my teenage years that I identified myself as “gay.” I went to my first gay bar on my 18th birthday; I had never met another gay person or been in such a place… I was thrilled but instantly knew that, once again, I was different. It was when I saw the “drag show” that I felt I had finally found my place. I asked a million questions and learned as much as I could about how to transform.
How and why did you decided to enter the Adult Industry?
I have been doing female impersonation shows for years. I had considered working in the Adult Industry but never felt comfortable enough. I then did some escort work and became more comfortable with my body and my sexuality. I had to find the right people to shoot me etc. I am still VERY new to the industry and learning as I go.
As a person with male anatomy who’s an adult performer, I would imagine that life may have not been easy as you were on your journey to discovery. Did you experience any bullying and how did you resolve that?
I was very fortunate growing up. I was in a very small town where everyone knows everyone and as bad as that could have gone for me, it actually worked in my favor. I had known everyone in town since we were in elementary school, I basically just stayed under the radar and escaped without any real harrassment.
What lessons did you learn along the way that defined your career whether you wanted to move forward or move on to do something else?
As I said I am still very new to this so I am learning and having fun. I am looking forward to doing more shoots and getting more exposure.
Why do you think that men have a stronger preference for “chicks with dicks”? Is it the taboo factor?
I definitely think it is the “taboo factor.” Guys always seem to want something new or different and I think they find that with transsexuals. It is the thrill of the unknown and something secret they can explore.
Describe what it was like the first time shooting a sex scene in front of cameras?
So far I have only done solo shoots, but even that I was terrified of! I had a few glasses of wine before I started shooting and was still very nervous. I was shooting for Jonelle Brooks and she made me relax and feel more comfortable, it was really a great experience. I am looking forward to doing a “hardcore” scene.
Do you regard yourself as an everyday woman or what you do is for the cameras?
I live a very normal life. Obviously I live this way 24/7. I do all the things anyone else does… Grocery shop, run errands, etc. For the cameras obviously I am just a sexier version of myself; it is almost just as much of a fantasy for me as it is for the men who are watching.
Talk about your on camera scenes. How do they make you feel? What is your greatest pleasures while filming?
Being new to this I still get nervous. I am normally nervous right up until the minute I start shooting then it is like the world disappears and I am focused on myself. I think about the guys that will be watching the finished product and that is what turns me on.
How important it is that all people of the Adult Industry control their career?
I think controlling any aspect of your life is very important. Your career is what is keeping you clothed and fed, people seem to forget this. As I have said, I am still learning but also being careful about who I shoot for and staying loyal t0 those who have been good to me.
On a scale of 1-10 how happy are you with your life?
Right now I am at a 8.5. I am very happy with the way things are going. I hope to do more work in the adult industry and get myself out there a little more. Maybe next time I can speak of an award I have won!!
[PHOTOS] Trevor Brooks (Oh Ya! Studios Inc, jonellebrooks.com)
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